Posts About Grief
Remembering the Saints

Remembering the Saints

Four years ago Adam and I lost twin boys. I suspect that it is grief’s nature to be surprising as well as devastating. Yet, there is comfort in the grief if only because I never want to forget.

Ashes to Ashes & The Question of Heaven

Ashes to Ashes & The Question of Heaven

I love the beauty of the ashes to ashes, dust to dust liturgy of Ash Wednesday, but this year it reminds me our twin boys … I don’t know if I believe in heaven any more than I did before, but I certainly hope for it more.

Carrying the Weight

Carrying the Weight

When we lost our twin boys, I figured the weight I had gained would also be lost. No babies, no baby weight. Anything else would go against my belief in the karmic justice of the universe. The universe failed me.

Hospice Grief

Hospice Grief

They say it never leaves you, grief. It comes back — sneaking up behind you for a surprise party that leaves you insisting “it’s your party, so you can cry if you want to.”